It is finished. My first year of college. Well, almost finished. I still have 3 tests to finish...but that's beside the point. This year has been a whirlwind. A year full of changes and challenges, hurts and healing, laughter, learning, love, life... Life lived to the fullest. Memories, moments milestones. The descriptive words could go on. And on. And on. I truly believe with my entire being that God has used this past year to grow me in leaps and bounds..far more than He has done before. I have learned so many lessons about Him, His love for me, His MERCY and GRACE. (Still so blown away every time...) He has taught me about myself... shown me the good, the bad, and the downright ugly parts of me. He has cradled me, crushed me, and put me back together. I cannot even begin count how many times He, the Master Potter, has seen an imperfection and smashed me only to begin to mold me into something pure. And again. I am beautifully broken.
So, as I begin my journey of packing up my things and heading home, I cannot help but ponder and pray. What exactly have I learned this past year? What is the BIGGEST lesson God has taught me? It's so hard to choose.
But, I am going to be bombarded with this question for the next few Sundays at church..so, I better be ready with an answer...
Here it is...the greatest thing I have learned. The greatest thing God has taught me this past year. Are you ready? Okay...
God has taught me how much I really don't know.
I have been faced with this fact every single day of my freshman year at Baptist Bible College. Not an ideal lesson for a girl who likes to know everything, Huh? EXACTLY. God knows me way more than I know myself. He created me. He knows my pride. And He desires to crush that pride. Ouch.
Now, you all need to realize that I'm not talking about Math, English, Writing, or even History. That is all just the a tiny sliver of my education here.
What I am talking about is this: Every single day, I am faced with the fact that I don't really know anything about God, about His love, about His Word. I THOUGHT I did. But, contrary to popular belief, being a church kid who went to Christian school does not automatically give you all the knowledge you will ever need know. Basically, all of those things in my life were like just reading the Table of Contents in my Bible. I may know the books of the Bible, have them memorized even.. but it gets me NOWHERE.
As I have learned and will continue to learn more and more about God, I realize just how much I do not know.. and I realize how much I will never know. How much no one on this earth will ever know. That's the beautiful, enticing part of it all...His mystery. God is infinite. All powerful. All loving. Immortal. Invisible. All Knowing. Everywhere. Mighty. Holy. Jealous. Merciful. Kind. But, we will never know the full extent of God. While some may say, "Why even try if you can't know everything about Him??" I say, "I want to know ALL that He wants to show me about Himself."
So, I pray that every single day He will continue to teach me just how much I really don't know. Because, if I ever come to the point where I know it all, then I am in big trouble.
So, as I begin my journey of packing up my things and heading home, I cannot help but ponder and pray. What exactly have I learned this past year? What is the BIGGEST lesson God has taught me? It's so hard to choose.
But, I am going to be bombarded with this question for the next few Sundays at church..so, I better be ready with an answer...
Here it is...the greatest thing I have learned. The greatest thing God has taught me this past year. Are you ready? Okay...
God has taught me how much I really don't know.
I have been faced with this fact every single day of my freshman year at Baptist Bible College. Not an ideal lesson for a girl who likes to know everything, Huh? EXACTLY. God knows me way more than I know myself. He created me. He knows my pride. And He desires to crush that pride. Ouch.
Now, you all need to realize that I'm not talking about Math, English, Writing, or even History. That is all just the a tiny sliver of my education here.
What I am talking about is this: Every single day, I am faced with the fact that I don't really know anything about God, about His love, about His Word. I THOUGHT I did. But, contrary to popular belief, being a church kid who went to Christian school does not automatically give you all the knowledge you will ever need know. Basically, all of those things in my life were like just reading the Table of Contents in my Bible. I may know the books of the Bible, have them memorized even.. but it gets me NOWHERE.
As I have learned and will continue to learn more and more about God, I realize just how much I do not know.. and I realize how much I will never know. How much no one on this earth will ever know. That's the beautiful, enticing part of it all...His mystery. God is infinite. All powerful. All loving. Immortal. Invisible. All Knowing. Everywhere. Mighty. Holy. Jealous. Merciful. Kind. But, we will never know the full extent of God. While some may say, "Why even try if you can't know everything about Him??" I say, "I want to know ALL that He wants to show me about Himself."
So, I pray that every single day He will continue to teach me just how much I really don't know. Because, if I ever come to the point where I know it all, then I am in big trouble.